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Another set of blue eyes meet mine across the empty bar.

Of course he knew where to find me. His are wide and questioning, mine are dark, set and defiant, I know. I won芒聙聶t be talked at by a kid. Not about this; it芒聙聶s out of his depth. Out of mine too, but I芒聙聶m not going to admit anything -won芒聙聶t let anything slip again.

It芒聙聶s not that I don芒聙聶t care for the kid, I really do, it芒聙聶s just芒聙娄
I won芒聙聶t talk about it to anyone. Not this. And he mistakes my behaviour for coldness, but its not. Maybe it isn芒聙聶t just that I won芒聙聶t tell him. I 芒聙聯 I can芒聙聶t. I芒聙聶m not ready to tell anyone, not even myself. Because to be honest, I don芒聙聶t know how to answer his question. I don芒聙聶t have the answer he wants; I don芒聙聶t have an answer at all.

He asks again.
芒聙聹Why won芒聙聶t you stay?芒聙聺

I turn away from him slightly, masking my cowardice by pretending to ponder his endless questioning. I really am a coward. I can芒聙聶t even face a child芒聙聶s simple question, let alone do anything to protect those I care most about. I am芒聙娄 I am nothing. I lost everything once, and I can芒聙聶t risk losing this - my second chance. I don芒聙聶t know why the others put up with me;

I芒聙聶m nothing but a burden to them. An intruder who lost his own family so was tagged onto theirs. I spent so long playing pretend and 芒聙聵happy families芒聙聶 that I ran out of lies to hide behind. I don芒聙聶t belong here. I don芒聙聶t belong here at all and they know it and I know it so why is this kid still standing here trying to persuade me to follow some pipe-dream that won芒聙聶t happen anyway芒聙娄

I freeze in my frantic thoughts as the light weight of a hand on my shoulder rouses me from my mind. I look at him and he holds my gaze.
芒聙聹Please, just come back. We all miss you at home, Dad. Come home. Please.芒聙聺

Then he leaves.

I don芒聙聶t notice I芒聙聶m crying until I see the glistening droplets pooling on the bar counter. I only started living when I realised I had something to live for.